Cheering the plot bunnies on! Go bunnies, go! You're so close. I can't believe it. What an achievement. You should feel proud one way or another.
I should have said before during my offline period but I am SO sorry you aren't feeling well. It sounds terrible and I hope you bounce back soon. How are things going? Have they figured out what it is? My cousin has fibromyalgia and it seems to keep her from doing anything. I hope that's now been ruled out.
I also should have responded to your bravely honest posts on your life issues. I'm also proud of you for figuring out what you really want and changing your life to get it. I know from experience how hard that is, particularly when friends and family is very invested in keeping things the way they are, even though pretending to be someone you're not makes you desperately unhappy.
Life is way too short to waste it being someone you're not just to make everyone else's lives easier. I get angry about how much I missed out on so I try not to think about how I wasted ages thirteen to eighteen and from when I was twenty-two to twenty-four and a half.
That said, it's really hard, painful, terrifying and confusing to do. I'm not done getting where I want to be and should have been if I hadn't chickened out and let others push me into playing a part. Still, I can't wait to get there. The process of achieving it has been incredibly fulfilling, educational and amazing. I'm so proud of myself for what I've achieved. That helps me forgive myself for the little lapses back into bad habits along the way. Even if I'm not yet the person I want to be, I'm so much better than who I was even six months ago.
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I should have said before during my offline period but I am SO sorry you aren't feeling well. It sounds terrible and I hope you bounce back soon. How are things going? Have they figured out what it is? My cousin has fibromyalgia and it seems to keep her from doing anything. I hope that's now been ruled out.
I also should have responded to your bravely honest posts on your life issues. I'm also proud of you for figuring out what you really want and changing your life to get it. I know from experience how hard that is, particularly when friends and family is very invested in keeping things the way they are, even though pretending to be someone you're not makes you desperately unhappy.
Life is way too short to waste it being someone you're not just to make everyone else's lives easier. I get angry about how much I missed out on so I try not to think about how I wasted ages thirteen to eighteen and from when I was twenty-two to twenty-four and a half.
That said, it's really hard, painful, terrifying and confusing to do. I'm not done getting where I want to be and should have been if I hadn't chickened out and let others push me into playing a part. Still, I can't wait to get there. The process of achieving it has been incredibly fulfilling, educational and amazing. I'm so proud of myself for what I've achieved. That helps me forgive myself for the little lapses back into bad habits along the way. Even if I'm not yet the person I want to be, I'm so much better than who I was even six months ago.
So what's happening?