gelbes_gilatier | Even MORE daily useless rambling

Yep, it's a collection of daily meaningless rambling...

11:00 Dear body of mine! Please stop being such an ass. I KNOW you're completely healthy so stop pretending you're not. Thank you very much. #
11:39 Huzzah! Can go to Berlin 2morrow for the next roughly 3 weeks b/c all paperwork is done! Becoming unemployed is such a pain in the ass :P #
11:56 RT @Sajina RT: @dottedMelon: Stargate SG-1 meets German politics: Merkel "played" by @amandatapping was never so sexy bit.ly/I4QTi #
12:01 Oh God, can't stop laughing at NDR version of coalition talks between liberals and conservatives. #Stargate and German politics mash-up... #
12:54 Note to self: Not only learn 2 cook, also learn 2 keep your kitchen clean while cooking. Otherwise it'll end up looking like a battlefield. #
13:07 Confession of the day: I like Marit Larsen's "If A Song Could Get Me You" and I could listen to it non-stop. So there. #
13:32 Alright, off to the doctor's. Yes, that's right, you're getting rid of me for the remainder of the afternoon. Und alle so: Yeaaah. #
23:26 Eh, ppl, do me a favor? Cheer my plot bunnies on? Dec. 13th is my personal deadline 4 finishing #Fanfic100 & I still have 17 stories 2 go. #

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Cheering the plot bunnies on! Go bunnies, go! You're so close. I can't believe it. What an achievement. You should feel proud one way or another.

Thank you :) I am but I have this thing with wanting to finish what I started or I won't be satisfied. So I'll be proud when I'm finally done (and then I can go and start working on the next claim I requested... eh, or maybe the "Protect and Survive" stories that are still lying around on my harddrive... or the "Minor Characters" story with the barbecue Lorne's team still owes SG10...).

Have they figured out what it is?

Mostly, yes. The doc said it's not fibromyalgia (about which I'm really relieved since it did not sound nice). Basically, everything they found was iron defiency which they are treating right now and probably a hormonal dysbalance which still needs to be checked. As for the psychological diagnosis... it's not exactly a depression but something that's called a somatic disorder which basically means that every time I'm mentally or emotionally distressed over longer periods of time, my body reacts with physically inexplainable pain (actually, I knew that before... I just didn't know there was a name for it). Obviously, therapy can help with that so I'll try it.

I'm so proud of myself for what I've achieved.

And you can definitely be proud. I always find it amazing what you manage to juggle and how you can keep up with all of that. Honestly, you're a role model and I'm pretty sure you'll get exactly where you want to be.

As for me... I'm in a process of trying to find out what exactly is the right thing for me. At least I'm getting slowly back on my feet and learn to realize that I'm not the screw up I liked myself to think of for some parts of the last four years and get back some of my self-esteem but I guess I'm just a little overwhelmed by the number of options I suddenly seem to have (while, at the same time, the danger of falling really hard seems to have increased infinitely...). One major thing - making a try at reenlisting in the Army - has been put away until I have completed therapy (I estimate that to take about a year) but that still means I have to find out what I want now :P That doesn't make looking for a job any easier ;) I'll try to write a longer posting about the last week in hospital and my near future in the course of the week, I think.

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