You know, this is why I hate Mondays.
Aug. 11th, 2010 11:41 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gelbes_gilatierI know it's Wednesday today but what happened on Monday afternoon still has me all riled up.
Because, see, I was at the doctor's again on Monday. I'd not expected much, just another referral to physical therapy and the reminder to be a little patient. But unfortunately, no such luck for me. I did get my referral for PT... but I also got a referral to another surgeon (from a surgeon... yes, this is weird, I know). Usually, I get treated by a female surgeon who's approach is something like "Oh, it'll get better, don't worry. I had competitive athletes with stuff like that and they're still very much active today. You just have to be a bit patient." but apparently she's on vacation currently or something because I got a male surgeon... who suddenly was like (seriously, totally out of the blue... no one ever said something definite about that to me) "So, we want to introduce you to another doc about that arthroscopy we wanted to do."
You can imagine how happy that made me? As in "not happy at all"? My reaction was something like "Uh... no? This is the first time I hear about this?" and he started to explain to me why until now they couldn't do the arthroscopy (apparently, there had been some minor fracture in the knee involved... a friend of mine who's currently doing her residency as a gynecologist (!) recently explained to me what the whole fracture thing was actually about... thanks so much to the docs who actually are treating me for never bothering to do so) and how the fracture should be healed by now (should be? Should be?) and that they can now do the arthroscopy. I keep wondering... would it have killed them to actually talk about my case with each other and talk about what the hell is the matter with my knee to me earlier than this? It's been going on since April. Plenty of time to give me a complete lowdown as to what's the matter, isn't it?
God, I'm just so fed up with the whole thing. It puts a stop sign to a lot of plans I had as an alternative to unemployment (because Work & Travel in New Zealand with a busted knee? Don't even think about it) and it makes me really miserable not to have at least some perspective of being able to use the knee like I did before the accident. It's been four months now and I still can't move it properly (although that did get a bit better over time and with PT) and there's still pain (that actually got worse, or so it feels) and no one ever tells me what's the matter and if that will get better eventually (okay, the female surgeon did say there's a pretty good chance that it'll be okay again and that I just have to give it some time).
I can't even go swimming :( (another funny story... the female surgeon told me I should try it and see what happens... I did, and it was painful at first but manageable in the long run... and now the male surgeon tells me that OMG NO SWIMMING PLEASE!) and PT is only like 30 minutes altogether or something. And it's just not the kind of physical activitity I'm used to and that I miss. At the end of September I could have the chance of going horseback riding again, even if only for one class and I'm dying to do that (because that's the first sport I ever did on a regular scale and I started it when I was like... ten or something) but yes, you actually need your knees for riding and now I'm afraid of even just asking the surgeons if there's any chance I might still be able to do that (seeing as the first appointment with the doctor who'll do the arthroscopy if he thinks it's necessary will be at the end of August which means surgery could very well happen in September). Damn, I hate that business so very, very, very much it's not even funny anymore.
On the bright side, I finished the first birthday story for![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
mackenziesmomma yesterday, and thank God she's an American so it still got to her on her birthday ;) I also finally finished my ten people, ten prompts meme story for ancient_leah as part of finally another Protect and Survive story which hopefully means I'm slowly getting back into the groove that Joe Mallozzi stole from me... well, that and that I might actually be able to write all the other stories I owe people from that meme as well ;)
And now I'll go and watch last week's Eureka ep (since the development of Zane/Jo still keeps me interested, even though they totally screwed up Jack/Tess (and yes, there will be fix it fic, I promise) and Fargo/Claudia squicks me out) and then last week's Leverage ep and that will hopefully cheer me up enough that I can then go on to writing job applications which means that I then can go on writing the next part of the apocafic 'verse (I called it Pandora's Box, BTW) without a guilty conscience. Mh, yeah, sounds like a plan.
Because, see, I was at the doctor's again on Monday. I'd not expected much, just another referral to physical therapy and the reminder to be a little patient. But unfortunately, no such luck for me. I did get my referral for PT... but I also got a referral to another surgeon (from a surgeon... yes, this is weird, I know). Usually, I get treated by a female surgeon who's approach is something like "Oh, it'll get better, don't worry. I had competitive athletes with stuff like that and they're still very much active today. You just have to be a bit patient." but apparently she's on vacation currently or something because I got a male surgeon... who suddenly was like (seriously, totally out of the blue... no one ever said something definite about that to me) "So, we want to introduce you to another doc about that arthroscopy we wanted to do."
You can imagine how happy that made me? As in "not happy at all"? My reaction was something like "Uh... no? This is the first time I hear about this?" and he started to explain to me why until now they couldn't do the arthroscopy (apparently, there had been some minor fracture in the knee involved... a friend of mine who's currently doing her residency as a gynecologist (!) recently explained to me what the whole fracture thing was actually about... thanks so much to the docs who actually are treating me for never bothering to do so) and how the fracture should be healed by now (should be? Should be?) and that they can now do the arthroscopy. I keep wondering... would it have killed them to actually talk about my case with each other and talk about what the hell is the matter with my knee to me earlier than this? It's been going on since April. Plenty of time to give me a complete lowdown as to what's the matter, isn't it?
God, I'm just so fed up with the whole thing. It puts a stop sign to a lot of plans I had as an alternative to unemployment (because Work & Travel in New Zealand with a busted knee? Don't even think about it) and it makes me really miserable not to have at least some perspective of being able to use the knee like I did before the accident. It's been four months now and I still can't move it properly (although that did get a bit better over time and with PT) and there's still pain (that actually got worse, or so it feels) and no one ever tells me what's the matter and if that will get better eventually (okay, the female surgeon did say there's a pretty good chance that it'll be okay again and that I just have to give it some time).
I can't even go swimming :( (another funny story... the female surgeon told me I should try it and see what happens... I did, and it was painful at first but manageable in the long run... and now the male surgeon tells me that OMG NO SWIMMING PLEASE!) and PT is only like 30 minutes altogether or something. And it's just not the kind of physical activitity I'm used to and that I miss. At the end of September I could have the chance of going horseback riding again, even if only for one class and I'm dying to do that (because that's the first sport I ever did on a regular scale and I started it when I was like... ten or something) but yes, you actually need your knees for riding and now I'm afraid of even just asking the surgeons if there's any chance I might still be able to do that (seeing as the first appointment with the doctor who'll do the arthroscopy if he thinks it's necessary will be at the end of August which means surgery could very well happen in September). Damn, I hate that business so very, very, very much it's not even funny anymore.
On the bright side, I finished the first birthday story for
mackenziesmomma yesterday, and thank God she's an American so it still got to her on her birthday ;) I also finally finished my ten people, ten prompts meme story for ancient_leah as part of finally another Protect and Survive story which hopefully means I'm slowly getting back into the groove that Joe Mallozzi stole from me... well, that and that I might actually be able to write all the other stories I owe people from that meme as well ;)And now I'll go and watch last week's Eureka ep (since the development of Zane/Jo still keeps me interested, even though they totally screwed up Jack/Tess (and yes, there will be fix it fic, I promise) and Fargo/Claudia squicks me out) and then last week's Leverage ep and that will hopefully cheer me up enough that I can then go on to writing job applications which means that I then can go on writing the next part of the apocafic 'verse (I called it Pandora's Box, BTW) without a guilty conscience. Mh, yeah, sounds like a plan.
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Date: 2010-08-11 11:00 am (UTC)Ich hab echt keine Ahnung, was ich dazu sagen soll...
Es ist nicht mal so sehr, dass keiner wirklich eine Ahnung zu haben scheint, was los ist oder was man tun soll oder dass die Meinungen auseinandergehen, denn das ist leider oft einfach immer noch so... trotz unserer tollen neuen Entwicklungen.
Aber es will mir nicht in den Kopf, wieso keiner mit dir redet! Es ist doch dein Körper und du musst wissen, was mit ihm los ist und vor allem, welche Behandlungsmöglichkeiten es gibt und angedacht sind!
Ich meine, es würde dein Knie vielleicht nicht schneller heilen, aber es würde zumindest einen Teil dieser frustrierenden Begegnungen abmildern...
(Und ich versteh's auch wirklich nicht... ich weiß, ich werde kein Arzt, aber das ist das erste, was wir gelernt haben: Das Selbstbestimmungrecht des Patienten zu fördern und vor allem offen zu ihm zu sein...)
*schüttelt den Kopf*
Ach man, ich wünsch dir so sehr, dass es dem Knie bald wieder gut geht! *drückt*
BTW: Fargo/Claudia? Gibt's da neue Entwicklungen, von denen ich noch nichts mitbekommen habe? *schaut schockiert*
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Date: 2010-08-11 12:12 pm (UTC)Siehst du, mir auch nicht! Alter, und ich dachte, die würden in der Praxis wenigstens miteinander reden, aber scheinbar ist nicht mal das der Fall. Der wusste noch nicht mal, dass ich schon seit bestimmt zwei Wochen oder so keine Schiene mehr trage, sondern nur noch ne Bandage. Ich will meine Chirurgin zurück >( Die hat zwar auch nicht wirklich mit mir geredet, aber die kennt meinen Fall wenigstens.
BTW: Fargo/Claudia? Gibt's da neue Entwicklungen, von denen ich noch nichts mitbekommen habe? *schaut schockiert*
Ja *schauder Ich hab die Folge jetzt gesehen und... ich will Todd zurück! Fargo/Claudia ist mir zu sehr... in my face, wenn du verstehst, was ich meine. Die übertreiben es echt ein bisschen irgendwie mit dieser ganzen geek love Sache. Aber gut, ich mochte Fargo noch nie so wahnsinnig, vielleicht isses auch deswegen.
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Date: 2010-08-11 05:25 pm (UTC)*seufzt* Ne, oder? :(
Naja gut, ich mein, du bist keiner seiner Fälle, aber dann verstehe ich gleichzeitig nicht, warum er dich sofort diesem anderen Arzt vorstellen wollte... *?*
Wann kommt deine Chirurgin denn zurück?
Ja *schauder Ich hab die Folge jetzt gesehen und... ich will Todd zurück! Fargo/Claudia ist mir zu sehr... in my face, wenn du verstehst, was ich meine. Die übertreiben es echt ein bisschen irgendwie mit dieser ganzen geek love Sache. Aber gut, ich mochte Fargo noch nie so wahnsinnig, vielleicht isses auch deswegen.
Ich hab die Folge vorhin jetzt auch gesehen und ich hab festgestellt, ich find Fargo/Claudia ganz niedlich... weil Claudia dabei ist. *lol* Totale Disqualifikation, aber die könnten sie auch mit... ner Mülltonne zusammenbringen und es würde für mich funktionieren. ;)
Aber irgendwie... ist Claudia in der Folge die meiste Zeit nicht wirklich so mit Fargo umgegangen, als würde sie ihn mögen, oder? Abgesehen von der Küsserei, meine ich... DAS hat mich wirklich gestört, weil dadurch die Basis fehlte und es erst recht gezwungen wirkte... Da fand ich sie in W13 glaubhafter.
Aber ich will auch Todd zurück... Ich versteh auch nicht, warum sie erst so eine große Sache aus ihm machen, nur um ihn dann wieder abzuschießen, sobald Fargo die Bühne betritt. Oder haben sie ihn eingeführt, als sie noch nichts von dem Crossover wussten? So fühlt es sich nämlich gerade ein bisschen an und das fänd ich sehr schade. Denn Claudia und Todd mögen so viel nicht gemein haben, aber ich fand sie irgendwie richtig goldig. ;)
Oh... und... äh... sorry für's OT ;)
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Date: 2010-08-11 06:10 pm (UTC)Na ja, ich hatte den schon vorher mal so zweimal oder so, also dachte ich quasi, dass die den Fall beide kennen. Scheint aber doch eher nicht so zu sein... und keine Ahnung, wann sie wieder da ist. Nächste Woche bin ich noch mal bei ihm... aber keine Ahnung, warum eigentlich, denn der Termin für das OP-Gespräch ist erst Ende August (aber gut, den Termin hatte ich noch gar nicht, als er mir seinen gegeben hat... alles verwirrend hier ;))und sie hat das immer nur so gemacht, dass sie gesagt hat "Kommen Sie wieder, wenn die Physio-Verordnung durch ist."
Aber irgendwie... ist Claudia in der Folge die meiste Zeit nicht wirklich so mit Fargo umgegangen, als würde sie ihn mögen, oder?
Na ja, das ist Claudia, ne? ;) Sie ist nicht gerade die zarteste Pflanze im Garten und so (und dafür lieben wir sie doch :D). Die Küsserei fand ich auch ganz furchtbar. ich meine, wenn man bedenkt, dass das die Frau ist, die mit Todd sogar das erste Date völlig versaut hat...
Oder haben sie ihn eingeführt, als sie noch nichts von dem Crossover wussten? So fühlt es sich nämlich gerade ein bisschen an und das fänd ich sehr schade.
Ja, das wäre eine Erklärung... oder vielleicht, dass da noch was nachkommt. Ich meine, die Art und Weise, wie die beiden "Schluss" gemacht haben? Dieses "Ich kann nicht mit dir zusammensein"... kam dir das nicht auch komisch vor?
Und das OT ist okay ;)
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Date: 2010-08-11 11:42 am (UTC)I finally manage to continue watching Eureka, with the German episodes (ugh, I know, but otherwise I would never watch it completely) and the beginning of s3 (where Stark is still there. I know they screwed his involvement in the plot and I can understand that Ed Quinn wanted to be more prominent but I miss him).
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Date: 2010-08-11 12:17 pm (UTC)It is a load of shit...
I can understand that Ed Quinn wanted to be more prominent but I miss him
I do, too :( He was an asshole but he worked well in the series... and most of all, he stopped Allison/Jack which just squicks me out. It just wouldn't work and I have no idea why the writers keep pushing it. Why couldn't they just keep Jack/Tess? That was perfect >(
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Date: 2010-08-11 01:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-08-11 01:18 pm (UTC)Yes, exactly \o/ But I do have a feeling you might like James Callis as Dr. Grant ;)
well, I like Jamie Ray Newman!
It's a great role for her :D I really liked seeing her because she was kind of a fresh breath of air for the cast... too bad she's gone :(
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Date: 2010-08-11 06:02 pm (UTC)Yes, I've read that she has left. Ah, too bad.
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Date: 2010-08-11 06:14 pm (UTC)Honestly, no idea.
:D
But okay, seriously: I love him as Grant. Baltar and I never really became friends, but Grant is much more my type of guy ;)
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Date: 2010-08-12 10:09 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-08-12 02:35 pm (UTC)Also, did I ever tell you how much I love your icon? &hearts
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Date: 2010-08-14 10:21 am (UTC)but I have faith that you can accomplish it all. ('cause you're awesome)
is it just me, or have recent episodes of Eureka been veering into Jo/Jack territory? (for me, a long-awaited return; Jo's better than any of them, imho, though if their only alternative is Zane)
have nice days and be well. *hugs*
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Date: 2010-08-15 01:52 am (UTC)i'm having doubts about the competance of that female surgeon. (her famous "other patients" probably have a score of real doctors that they go to to undo her damage)
*hugs you*